orbital - halcyon

this is so an 'OMG!' moment. okay, so sometime in the fall i had downloaded this song by Orbital, known as Halcyon. and this is a pretty famous trance song. when i first heard it, not only was i stunned by it, but it also felt a lot like deja vu. and OH! so here i am moving music off of cds and BOOM! from one of my old cds out comes halcyon. holy crap :)

the good guys

why are all the good guys that i'm interested in already taken? damnit!

sleep deprivation

so i figure i prolly threw my body into shock when i sleep 8 hours, 9 hours, 3.5 hours, 4.5 hours.

coldplay - yellow live

the first 55 seconds of "Coldplay - Yellow (live)" give me the chills. it's so much like U2 - where the streets have no name...

spicy

i miss his spicy smell, that reminded me of exotic times in hot countries. an adventure.

a whimper

oh my fucking crap. i miss you. i want to call you on the phone, i want to hear your voice. gagan i miss you and i don't know why.

cameras, a recent update, etc

i haven't updated this thing in FOR-EV-ER. crazy.

well, life has been pretty hectic with dynamics, deforms, and materials exam prior to my AWESOME adventures out to st. louis. hopefully i'll blog sometime about st. louis although i suspect that isn't really going to happen (just not in the mood for writing!).

so i tested the Canon A70 camera and i don't think i'm gonna get it. it's pretty big, sort of clunky, and the quality is not as high as i would demand out of my own camera. on the other hand, it does what it needs to do, and that is good i suppose.

i am so fired up about naesc right now. i was really flattered and touched when people came up to me at nationals and told me how awesome of a job i was doing... now that i think about it, the region really has doubled and while i lucked out in terms of who i was talking to, somebody had to do it, and i did it :)

older councils: 1) Virginia Tech 2) Virginia 3) NCSU 4) Pittsburgh
newer councils: 5) Maryland (U) 6) Maryland (G) 7) Duke 8) West Virginia 9) Villanova
pending councils: 10) George Mason

whee :) i think i am going to break the region down in zones (for traveling purposes) and start keeping track of everybody's academic schedules for the upcoming year. i think we can really make this region awesome. and i love what i am doing. i'm so excited!

star gazing

http://www.livejournal.com/users/fyerewitch/217662.html

i went back out today, just because i was getting so restless and i didn't know what to do anymore. there are too many thoughts in my mind, too many pressures, desires, anxieties. i wanted to get away. i got away. i walked out to the drillfield and liad down on the damp cold mushy earth and just looked up. and it was almost at once where i felt this relief, where everything i did mattered very little in the end, in the entire universe. i was so worried, but then i was calm.

there is this intimacy in my relationship in the sky. sometimes, i want to share it. i want to tell everyone what i really want to happen -- someone take me out into an open field and we spend the entire beautiful night just watching the sky until the sun rises. but if i were to publish that in the open, the guys who think they can woo me will go ahead and do it (i think). then the fantasy/dream becomes tainted. it becomes unperfect. it becomes sullied, and it is like me giving my virginity away. i want that moment to be perfect.

contraceptives

today in human sexuality we had a very interesting discussion about contraceptive methods and the effectiveness of these methods. we covered oral/injective contraceptives like the birth control pill, depo-p (forgot the rest of the word), the nuva ring, the patch, etc. we also had a demonstration on how to properly put on a condom and a brief overview of the female contraceptive.

i think the education is wonderful, however, i am not for any of this. the concept of using contraceptives for non-medicinal reasons is absurd. why would i want something that would change up what occurrs naturally? to thicken my cervical mucus so egg and sperm do not want to join?

i had a huge entry planned out but after eating some food and discussing briefly some of those issues with tim, the passion has subsided a bit.

i am pro-life. i don't like contraceptives. i can't ever see myself using them.

this entry is beginning to sound sporadic and absurd, which is why it's now on my blogger and not on lj =P

a different approach

perhaps instead of a set schedule, i should just go about things at my own pace. i want to cut down on my stress levels because i know i'm burning out and we haven't gotten to the crazy ass week yet (next week).

it seems so weird not to plan out my day by the hour though.